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[ Posted on September 20, 2007 @ 6:27 am ] Under your spell again. I can't say no to you. Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand. I can't say no to you. Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly. Now I can't let go of this dream. I can't breathe but I feel... Good enough, I feel good enough for you. Drink up sweet decadence. I can't say no to you, And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind. I can't say no to you. Shouldn't let you conquer me completely. Now I can't let go of this dream. Can't believe that I feel... Good enough, I feel good enough. It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good. And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall. Pour real life down on me. 'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough. Am I good enough for you to love me too? So take care what you ask of me, 'cause I can't say no It's taken me a while but I've finally finished learning this song on the piano, don't sound as great singing as I used to a few years back, but I suppose thats my fault for giving up on it. this song should be the theme-song of my life/relationship with Brendon, because it pretty much perfectly describes me (and the relationship) perfectly, for some reasons acoustic songs, or ones that have a lot of piano in them mean a lot to me, and I'm not sure why but they just get to me. Ryan walked in on me practicing today, and said that I sounded pretty (I think he was lying) and it embarrassed the hell out of me. I guess we all have our guilty pleasures, and mine is sitting in front of the piano singing evanescence songs and pretending to be something that I always wanted to be... I always wanted to be a musician, but I ended up just being a damn roadie (my fault for giving up). I guess I always thought kids like me never get famous, anyway, doubters never get anything. This year has been so intense, so many things happening and going wrong all at once, dramatics, dramatics. but what can we do huh? pretty much nothing haha, Thanks Jayde you just answered your own question, idiot. I lost my favorite pen the other day, and now I'm sad because thats the one that I use to do all my writing in, (shut the fuck up, its not my fault my moodswings are so intense and this stuff makes me sad) God this song is so depressing, and I miss my Brenny Bear, because he really is the reason I wake up in the morning and fall asleep at night, and everything else in between, Gosh, whats going to happen next in our spiral of doom? think happy thoughts Jayde, you're making up situations and problems that don't (and never will) exist, but god damn it really does seem like all the bad things happen to the people in this household. Funny how things like that work out, I guess, maybe not. cause I'm not really laughing. By the way, Brendon. have I ever told you that you mean the world to me? cause you really do. I love you <3 Post Comment

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